i'm so sick of this place that i'm at in my life. it's like i'm stuck in a ball and everything around me isn't real, maybe it's because i feel tied down and i don't have control over anything. i know i do- but in general i just feel trapped, and the only way i can get out is if i can escape, i need to get away. i feel like such a bastard, but i don't want to do any of this crap, i'm sick of school and all of this bullshit that i am constantly surrounded by, a lot of materialist crap (oh god i'm a hypocrite sometimes, but you can't really help it, yeah you can- tangent needs to end). what i mean to say is that i just want to be realesed, i need to let go of my 'saftey' and experience life for myself, when i do- i'll finally 'be free. but not yet, not yet.' hahahah, you see what i did there? oh yeah, movies are the shit. photography is the shit, but traveling, languages and cultures- there are the real shit. experience is life.